MIND

My own mind takin’ a beatin’
My own mind you know what I’m feelin’
My own mind you see that I’m dealin’
My own mind you know there's no reason
My own mind

And if I gazed into my head would i find the comfort
That calm and destined part of me that hasn’t suffered
I haven’t ever made it back from where I started
Can’t run away from this instead it’s got a hold of my mind can’t release it

And if I wanted to let go could i find the pleasure
I know it wouldn’t be enough to change forever
Can I make all the blackened thoughts in my head lose their infection

The virus spreads inside of me
It’s got a hold of my mind can’t release it

And my destiny is up in arms again
I know I’m not fit to walk in light of this
Cracked and blackened eyes that sit inside my head
I can make it back cause i’ve seen death

My own mind, it‘s my, my own mind 

HATE ME

I don’t wanna be the one to be
I don’t care if you think it should be
Can you look in my head and see
In and out of my life and hate me

Oh no, i know better than that
She said I’m not dumb
I thought everything would be fine
I guess i was wrong when i look inside will I feel it
Does it look like I’ll die
Can i get engraved of the feelin’
Will it be in my eye when I see that
They are all right

I don’t wanna be the one to be
I don’t care if you think it should be
Can you look in my head and see
In and out of my life and hate me
I don’t know about the one you see
Does he look anything like me
Can I end all of this and let be
Cause in the end i will pay

Oh no, i can’t live without that
She said I’m alone
I’ve got nothing in my way now
They know that i’m gone
When i look inside will i feel it
Does it look like i’ll die
Can I get engraved of the feelin’
Will it be in my eye when I see that they are all right

All along i know it’s wrong
It’s in me so I’ll walk alone
Can I let them in my head
If I know, they can’t end me
I don’t know if i have the means to let go of what I breathe
Can you burn out what’s in my head 

WHAT I NEED

Am I alone in this game
Can I win it all another way
I don’t mind if I test my fate
I know what it’s for
Can I look inside it’s eyes
See everything that I need
I can understand what I have
I know what it’s for

I know it’s all around me
I bet it’s just what I need
It’s not my only mission
Head’s up it’s just what I need
How long has it all been here
My god it’s just what I need

I can’t take it for granted
I know it’s name
Wake up and know I found it
Lay it out and let it sink in
I won’t hold my head down to it
I know what it’s for
Take a look it’s not broken
Look at how it make’s it fade away
It’s another thing that sets in
I know what it’s for

It's not overrated I see that I made it
Fuck that shit I hate it
I know it’s just not better than this
If I let it all come undone I know I won’t start it again
I know I’m not the only one and I can take it

You see I’m not dead 

LONGER

I am not over this
I am going to let go
It’s all up to me again
That’s fine I can always forget
I don’t wanna’ lose control
I know i can’t have it all
Don’t wanna’ lose control

I know it’s real and I can’t take it much longer
I know how it feels and I know I’m not getting stronger
I can’t make you feel that I’m over this slumber
I know it’s real and I can’t take it much longer
Take it much longer

I am left with all the shame
All I've said has been in vain
Shove me back and let me burn
I’ll do less on my second turn
I don’t wanna’ lose control
I know I can’t have it all
Don’t wanna’ lose control

I’m on my way and I’ll fly
And I guess that’s why I
Take all this time to relive all the things that I am
And i’ll take the long way back to what I needed
As long as it takes